I don't know what the cosmos is trying to tell me....I have recently had so many male friends pop up that I have not talked with in years! It has been so much fun to talk with them! I have laughed like I had not laughed in so long.....smiling a lot! Now, it seems like girlfriends are coming out of the woodwork, hating me, sending out all of this negative energy towards me...fortunately that is not really penetrating, but perplexing :) I think they all need to identify their insecurities as their's and own up to them, and not be so jealous of me. I think it just shows how happy I am to be alive every day, how much I just LOVE life and meanwhile, they are stuck living in their daily miseries that they have not realized,  but that they have created by design! Gosh I want no part of that, but I have been enjoying talking with my friends.....is that so bad?

I am writing this in short sperts so that I do not lose any of it in La La Land!

The best way, that I see, that we can "Just Do It," is to just let go. Just let ourselves be responsible for ourselves, and care for ourselves. Selfish? You think this sounds selfish? Well, see it as we really are, we all are one. The Grand Collective. So if by Just Doing It, we Just Say No to taking on the responsibilities of others, and truly care for ourselves, and nurture ourselves, and care for our spirits, take care of this container known as a body, so that the spirit may live a long and full life, so that it can gain the knowledge necessary to be peaceful in the place that lays beyond our vision, then we can truly improve the Grand Collective. So, Just Me is who I will care for, and Just Be is what I will do.
   Very simple concept. Won't you join me? You can care for you, and I will care for me, and as we are one, it will be ALL GOOD :) Our time here is so brief, we have this one shot at making it INCREDIBLE! Please do, for when you live your life fully, so will we all. Now, don't mistake me and think this  means, "wrecklessly" "Fully" means with joy, and love and peace and care.
   Have a great day...I'll see ya around ;)

I have been in sort of a writing mindset lately, so I figured this was the best place to do it, and to share it with you all.... This is what has been on my mind;
   Just Do It! - - - Just Say No!.....what are these folks thinking? So many kids (adults too) say "just do it" and don't take a moment into consideration of; who will this affect? how will it affect them? is it right or wrong? is it good or bad?
   Then there are the others, that take the "Just Say No!" to an extreme, without any explanation. Like a church, just want to cast fear into their followers, so that they will remain followers.
   I think I would like to expand this to a new perspective of  Just Me, Just Be......including the Just Say No, to mean to simply say no to the negative. To know that when the outside negative forces are trying to blame you for their suffering or if they are just trying to have you carry their suffering for them, you can simply, "Just Say No" and let them own it, let them carry the burden of their own suffering. By relieving their suffering for them, you cannot do them a service. It is like letting a friend cheat on a test in 5th grade math. No one learns. It is okay to share your perspective of a different path or of another choice, but only with the knowledge that you cannot make them see that perspective, nor can you push them down the alternative path.

Is new and beautiful! Work is great, my children are happy and healthy, and my husband  is working really hard on making things work for us. So right now, we might be apart, a state away, but I truly believe in "all good things in time" I am so grateful for all of the beauty in my life, for all of my friends that support me, even when I make crazy decisions. I am learning more about me, and feeling better about who I am than I think I ever have. This age and growing thing is fabulous! I am grateful for all of the difficult times that have given me the motivation and strength to grow. So, whenever I felt like I have reached my lowest of low's, all I have to do is lift my head and look up at  the light that surrounds me. I am so very grateful........Namaste my friends.....

2007, 2 + 7 = 9, 9 = change! It is definitely a year of change for me! I am leaving my little town with its little people with their little minds :D Oh, I hope that does not crush too many of the little peoples oversized ego's. For those of you more in the know, I had watched The Secret at years end. It has changed my life :)) For those that are anxious for me to go, don't worry, it will be soon. For those that care, I am sorry, I do hope you will visit! You can always reach and find me here! I will still be a Zaadster to the fullest! Through Zaadz, and Powerful Intentions, and The Secret, I have learned so much, and there is still so much for me to learn! I feel so blessed and so fortunate to be a part of this lifetime!

Thursday, Nov 16th marks the beginning of my new life. I quit my job working at our local elementary school :( It is sad, but exciting at the same time. Small towns on occassion bring small minds and definitely small town politics. Either way, life is moving forward, as usual. Nov 15th was my last day at the school, and those that seem to really care, made sincere efforts to let me know, to those of you, Thank You :) My intention is to be at my shop for longer hours, I will be homeschooling my own children, and just busy busy busy! This is a special time, as I feel myself morphing into a new stage of my life. Wish me luck!

Previously, I had made a comment about wanting a Whole Foods in our little town. Because of this, we (my family) have been banned from our local grocery store. My husband was there this morning to make a purchase, and the gentleman that runs the place removed his groceries from my husbands arms and told him that because of my comments on the Zaadz page, we were no longer welcome at his store. :l

How lucky I feel at times, especially when I just let go. The universe guides me in the most mysterious ways. So much anxiety tries to come along when making a move as I am. Can I do it? Will it be done in time? Will I be successful? Really unimportant questions. Of course I CAN do it, I will do as best as I can, and if I put good into it, good will come from it. So instead of  grabbing onto that anxiety and cradling it like an infant, I have chosen to let it go. By doing so, I have grown to realize just how wonderful this whole necessary change is! Growth and change are simply beautiful. In the last 24 hours, the universe has revealed this to me. I will be meeting with my friends and a Lama tonight. We will meditate and share our lives and time together. None of our lives will ever be the same, as they are always changing, yet we take so little time to notice. We get so busy with  so many unimportant facets in life.

Things are looking up! Although the atmosphere around, outside  of my shop has taken on a darker shade of grey lately, it seems it has provided me reason to look for another location for my business. Being Lone Pine is just a small town, .5 mi. X .5 mi., I have found a shop with highway frontage, that is not much more than I am paying rent now. As an added bonus, the shop space is larger! And, it has it's own restroom! How happy and sad I will be to leave my little courtyard :) :( So long as it is all in a forward motion, I know it is good and right. If you cannot make it to Lone Pine, you can visit me here... www.NaturalMysticOrganics.com, oh I had better update it soon!

I am so fortunate. I live in the Eastern Sierra and have often felt like I am living on a very small island. I grew up in the San Gabriel Valley where everything you could need is just outside your door or a phone call away. Not here. Most of my friends live at least a 3 hours drive and my mother is 30 minutes away. At times it has been very lonely. But, I am very fortunate. I have made friends with a group of people mostly 70 years old plus. I am learning so much with them. They share meditations with me with open arms. They smile and have happy spirits, the are stunningly beautiful! I have often wondered why I am here, and these people, these beautiful spirits are why.
      I have never used a blog before, and am not sure if I am doing this properly. If I am so fortunate to have you read this, then I am honored. With each day comes new lessons, blessings that are priceless.....peace...